[Fic] "Different Worlds" -- Harry Potter

[edenfalling]

Knocked this one off just now at the computer lab. 5 minutes, give or take. Probably not very good, but eh, you can't win 'em all.

Ginny Weasley, on pain. Double drabble (200 words).

[ETA: The AO3 crosspost is now up!]

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Different Worlds
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Pain of the body burns through your veins, searing away thought, convulsing muscles, drawing blood where teeth and nails dig into flesh in a futile effort to rip the invading sensation out of the body.

Pain of the mind is worse, because you can still think about what's happening to you. You can feel yourself slipping away, feel guilt or anger or betrayal eating your soul. Pain of the body becomes your entire world, blotting out the memory of what relief feels like, but half the torture in pain of the mind is the memory of what you were like before you hurt, and the knowledge that you're helpless before the tsunami.

Ginny is an expert on pain. She had a good teacher, and he drove her through hell itself. She knows guilt. She knows betrayal. She knows fear, anger, hopelessness, and the shaking, helpless, nameless thing that rises inside and bursts in a flood of acid when a person is pushed beyond her limits.

Cruciatus, Ginny thinks to herself, is nothing. She forces her shaking body back under control, unkinks her bloodied fingers, and shapes her face into a smile.

"Not good enough," she tells Bellatrix Lestrange. "Try again."

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Inspired by the 12/12/04 15minuteficlets word #85: painful

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Comments

[missmurchison.livejournal.com]

It's very good! I like the way you get in Ginny's mind.

[edenfalling]

Thanks!

[redwolfoz.livejournal.com]

Go Ginny. I like her using her experience to beat the Cruciatus.

[edenfalling]

Heh. Tom had to be good for something.

[erised1810.livejournal.com]

[{huggles}} I watn sometihgn to cuddle. this gin yis scary. to bea ble to withstand crucio performed by bellatrix, someoen who obivsl ygoe forthe highest levels of pain.


I'd lie kto ask you now, inwriting secrets, arey o ugoign very detaield int othe darkrelatonship with TOm? I know this is one ofthose 'if I tel her this she might not read it' situatiosn but it's mostly to prepare me. IF youv'e ver read' the very secret diary' or soem of "lj user="viola_dreamwalk"> 's ginny pieces, You know how far I'v gone.
acutaly nto associated iw ththis but so logn as you not have her seroiusly mindfucked by tom (asi nmenta lrape ,adn odnt' get mestartedo nit, jsut don't0 or literally raped by memory1TOm it'l be reliefand a fres breeze aroudn me.
TOo muc hstuffi v'e seen recently is ginny / TOm inthe literal pairing sense adn that scares me. I went as far as believing there's a sense oftrust perhaps or a crush or admiration but R? nc-17?
I" motu now. 'expectrto patronus*

[edenfalling]

Nope. Nothing should get worse than OotP -- I'm going for a similar effect of isolation and the-world-is-against-me -- and while I think an older Ginny might look back on her relationship with Tom and wonder about it, nothing 'romantic' is going to happen. Everything else for a relationship is there -- trust, shared secrets, two people helping each other -- and Ginny will therefore be massively upset/distraught/betrayed when she finally figures out that Tom's using her, but no romance.

Honestly, people can have really close relationships that have nothing to do with sex!

I find Ginny/Tom interesting, but not particularly canonical. And "Secrets" is as close to canon as I can get, so... no shipping! :-)

[erised1810.livejournal.com]

That is what I woud lenvision too. i'v jeu sten too many detailed descriptions of thigns plled beyond canon, lie k isaid. literal rape. iv'e ven seen ginny-posesse-dby-TOm semi-rapign a girl in ehr year. they wer both twelve liz, FUKCIGN TWELVE!!! threre was awhoel lot more with fire adn frozen flames adn it endewithe mwakign upadn her sayign no-peo ncan hel pem.
i real thoguth iwas goig nto read a 'ginnys' year form antoeh person's POV".
Sosorry i freakd out about yoru own ficlet and freka otu agai nabout along-ago-red story that has nothign to do with you. its' jsut lately dark goes apparent yfro ginny ,Hermione, Lily. I cna harld yse the mas real charcter sanymore, onl tyainted and shrouded inamist of hidden secrets and stuff no-oen can uncover.

[edenfalling]

Eh what? Usually I can translate your spelling, but you lost me here.

[erised1810.livejournal.com]

there was a lot I wanted to say at once. And I was too enthusiastic to watch out and just sent. Bah.
Suffice to say I kept associating "dark" with Ginny, Lily, Hermione, I hardly see them as real characters anymore. I saw a horrid one with Ginny that I just won't describe in detail again.
And i'll delete the old post. That wasn't meant to end up in nonsense.
sorry1

[edenfalling]

Don't worry about it! I just couldn't figure out what you said after describing the one fic, and was curious.

I know what you mean about stories sometimes making you lose sight of canon characters! I'm having a little bit of a problem with that now, since I'm working on a post-Hogwarts story ("Paint the Town") which is making it difficult to get back to seeing Ginny as an 11 year old for "Secrets".

[erised1810.livejournal.com]

Oh it's frustrating sometimes. I see a particualr fanon standard i nsoem parts of the fandom. I've been in a particular Siriu7s/Hermione group I alreaddy thought "i am not goign to write liek that, I'll stay t rue to how I view my characters." and iendedu p falling in anyway.
God luck writing!