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Got my last tax document yesterday so today I filed my taxes. \o/

I also had an actual client despite the vicious snow squall that blew through the area from 5 to 6pm, so that was nice.

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And now for something completely unrelated to work!

I spent pretty much the entirety of last night sweaty and overheated, to the point where I took off my pajama pants and kept shoving my comforter half off my body. No idea what was going on there, but I suspect it was the cause of the deeply unpleasant nightmare I had.

The dream was loosely based on Stephen King's Pet Sematary and ~helpfully~ featured my own nuclear family in the starring roles. (Context: Pet Sematary is one of the few books that I deliberately set aside rather than finish, not because it was in any way bad -- it's very well written -- but because I could tell EXACTLY where the foreshadowing was leading and I decided I did not want to go there. I stand by this choice.)

I am a semi-lucid dreamer, which meant I was aware that I was dreaming, but I am not a fully lucid dreamer and was therefore unable to successfully derail the dream or force myself awake. Any minor alterations I managed just fed back into the narrative, which of course made the whole thing worse.

When I did finally wake up, I experienced what I am pretty sure was a type of night terror/sleep paralysis. I will swear to any god you like that I saw the translucent, ghostly form of Catherine Tate (yes really. no, I have no idea why) hovering over me and rippling like smoke in the air, and I knew that she had caused the dream, and if she touched me I would get sucked right back into it. And I couldn't move. Couldn't even blink.

In the back of my head part of me was calmly cataloging this, all "This is a night terror, you are hallucinating, ghosts aren't real, there is a perfectly rational scientific explanation for this experience," but that did sweet fuck-all to convince the irrational gibbering occupying the majority of my brain for that handful of seconds.

Anyway I did eventually manage to blink, and then blink again and sit up and wake my phone to create a bit of light. And then I spent about 45 minutes reading about ancient Mesopotamia in hopes that I could create enough of a mental/emotional gap that my brain wouldn't attempt to recreate the same dream when I went back to sleep.

This mostly worked -- a bloodthirsty reanimated cat did appear in my next round of dreams, but my family was not involved and the emotional weight was gone.

I devoutly hope the experience will not repeat itself tonight.
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Today, I finally scraped together enough spare time to create my move-out packet source spreadsheet (this mostly involved taking a pre-existing spreadsheet and removing a bunch of extraneous columns and rows, and then adding a few new rows to account for subtenants) and then to mail-merge the move-out direction sheets and the key return envelope labels.

My printer went weird in the middle, which had the unfortunate side-effect of wasting several label sheets (ugh), but I triumphed in the end.

I have also printed out a bunch of security deposit return address forms, which I will need to cut in the morning. I will also need to apply the labels to the envelopes, because I did not have time for that.

Tomorrow I also have to send out at least two leases, as well as show four different people various sample apartments. If possible, I would also like to get started on distributing the move-out packets, because they're kind of time-sensitive.

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This is not going to be an especially relaxing day.

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In other news, I was able to collect Harrow the Ninth from the library yesterday and I started reading it this afternoon. Thus far it is, as I expected, a head trip. I very much want to know what is going on (aside from spoilers? )

And now I think I shall be off to bed, because I slept really oddly last night and kept having frustration dreams about being an obstetrician in training and/or a bus driver for my local high school, which at least twice mashed together into episodes of trying to deliver a baby on a moving school bus. Brains are weird.
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Apropos of nothing in particular, I have noticed a pattern in my dreams over the past couple years which is both completely unsurprising and kind of weird: namely, I am doing some kind of activity in an building (generally an apartment building, but sometimes a commercial property) owned and managed by the rental company I work for.

The thing is, the property in question does not exist. The architecture varies from almost normal to technically-buildable-but-bugfuck-impractical to completely non-Euclidean. And I always, invariably, get hopelessly lost, which is hideously embarrassing because I am a rental agent and ought to know where I'm going.

That's not the weird part. That's all pretty normal as far as my dreams go. I get occasional stress dreams with work-related topics (when I worked at the smoke shop, I used to dream about shelving books/magazines, and once about staffing the cash register naked), a lot of my stress dreams involve trying to go somewhere and being unable to reach my destination, and one of the frequent obstacles is building structures that don't make any real-world sense.

The weird part is that over time the buildings in question have been sort of asymptotically approaching something that might almost make sense as a housing complex (maybe with a couple food-related commercial spaces on the ground floor) in Ithaca, and settling on a moderately reasonable physical location to boot (partway up East Hill, between the Commons and Collegetown).

I have the damndest feeling that I'm trying to be an architect in my sleep, and that is not something I am prepared to handle. Designing oil paintings in my sleep makes sense. Composing music in my sleep makes sense. (I never remember it when I wake up, alas!). Writing stories in my sleep makes ALL THE SENSE.

But structurally and commercially viable architecture?

That's just weird.
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Things done yesterday after 11am:

1. Wrote three more 3-sentence ficathon fills.

2. Left Not the IRS at 2:30pm, since I had no appointments and other people were available to cover walk-in clients.

3. Deposited the check.

4. Took a nap.

5. Folded and put away pants from Sunday's laundry effort.

And that's pretty much it. Sometimes you need an afternoon and evening to do nothing in particular. :)

I did have some very odd dreams once I went back to bed around 11:30pm -- a weird jumble of things related to apartments and real estate (which is unsurprising; I have had increasing numbers of dreams about weird apartment buildings since I started working for the rental company) and then an abrupt tangent about trying to get soldiers home from a war by riding some very tired horses up a series of hills and staircases, of all things, with brief digressions into fancy rodeo tricks and the resale value of plastic kiddie pools.

Brains are weird, you know?

Anyway, I have a client schedule for 10am today, so I will post this and go get ready. *wry*
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I was poking through my background worldbuilding/character reference files for Enchanted Forest Chronicles fic this evening, and found the following passage:

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Thursday, 9/25/08

I had an interesting semi-lucid dream last night, in which Telemain was the oldest of a woodcutter's three sons. At some point they got involved in a quest and, knowing that he wouldn't be the one to complete it, Telemain went into the woods, was polite-ish to the squirrel he met, and asked her the directions to Stokey's Academy rather than to the quest object. "It gets me out of the story just as neatly as a broken leg," he told her, "and since I already have supplies and said goodbye to everyone, I might as well go directly from here." The squirrel found him astonishing, but gave him the directions.

"You might also make sure Andevel can still work when you send him back," Telemain added as he walked down the left-hand fork in the path. "I know Oris won't be coming home, and it's only polite to leave Father one son to inherit the family job."

Andevel went into the woods three days later, met the squirrel, and came back with a sprained ankle -- he made a crutch from a fallen branch and hobbled home. He gave Morwen odd looks for three more days until Oris left home. Then he told how he'd met a squirrel who'd... done something, this next part was hazy... and sent him home to follow in his father's footsteps, at Telemain's request.

Morwen just sighed and said, "That sounds about right. He never can leave well enough alone."

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I don't think this is my actual headcanon for Telemain's family or his departure from Splot (which I have decided is the village he and Morwen both grew up in), but it amused me upon rediscovery and I feel like sharing it with the internet at large. :)
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Things and stuff:

1. I decided not to try getting a haircut on September 29th because that weekend was Apple Harvest Festival and just no. Last weekend my hair place was tragically closed. But! I called this morning to check, and my hair guy promised to be in at 9:00am tomorrow morning, so I will finally get rid of this infernally annoying shagginess around my temples and on the back of my neck! \o/

2. Prof. G gave the Spanish class amnesty on assignments over fall break, so they were all collectively due on Tuesday instead of on their original due dates. Which was good, because there were a bunch of partner dialogues and M (my partner) and I can only meet online to record them around 9:30pm, which is kind of awkward and means we're both a little punch-drunk tired while trying to think in another language. *wry* Anyway, I am now one day ahead on my assignments, and am slowly attempting to increase that to two or three days of padding... which will be super-useful for future partner dialogues since I'll be able to schedule them with M in advance.

3. My government class continues to be the easiest goddamn thing I have done in well over a decade. It's basically, read one 20- to 25-page chapter a week, take the world's most ridiculously easy 10-question multiple choice quiz, make three posts in the weekly discussion thread, and every fourth week write the world's dinkiest essay. I could have aced this course when I was freaking eight years old. *pauses* *considers* Well, no, I had no work ethic when I was eight. And probably not when I was ten, either, since my fourth grade teacher managed to destroy the fragile work ethic I'd been starting to scrape together under Mrs Skrypa's gentle guidance. But when I was nine, yeah, I would've eaten this class for breakfast.

4. I need to sign up for Yuletide, but that requires a good few hours sorting through the tagset and pondering prompts and offers, which I don't have the spoons for right now. Perhaps tomorrow night, perhaps Sunday. We'll see.

5. Proper autumn weather at last!!!

6. Still not done with my first solo rental office counter display (which is two maple trees with colorful autumn foliage, for those who don't follow me on Tumblr, where I posted a draft photo on Monday). I put up an additional branch yesterday, and finished cutting out the additional 45 leaves today, but I still need to tape all the new leaves onto the trees. I will definitely get that done tomorrow though.

7. I kind of miss being involved in RE, but I am so glad I'm not trying to facilitate the youth group this year. There is no way on earth I would have the time or the energy. Maybe next fall I'll volunteer for a younger age group again. I always did like the K-2 age range. :)

8. Mom is coming to visit Tuesday night and Wednesday morning. The plan is to A) remove my AC from the front window, B) drop off some Halloween candy for my inevitable deluge of trick-or-treaters, C) eat dinner out, D) eat breakfast out, E) talk and hang out, and F) pack the unfortunately unsuitable gift chair in Mom's car for transport to NJ.

(Chair backstory: I had a violently purple computer chair that I nabbed from an apartment trash room back in... 2005, I think? which had long since worn out and desperately needed replacing. So Mom and Dad bought me a new chair last year, but because they were working sight unseen, the chair they purchased ended up not working for me for various reasons. I have since acquired a new chair that does work -- by nabbing it from the verge of a house several blocks down the street (this is perfectly reasonable! leaving stuff out on the verge is the Ithaca way of telling people to take it if they want it! it's like a city-wide unofficial free garage sale!) and then giving it a thorough vacuum and scrub to remove absurd amounts of cat hair -- so it's not as if this will leave me chairless. And hopefully the chair will turn out to be useful for Mom, who could probably use a replacement for her own computer chair.)

9. Someday I will figure out why people traveling (and often on various forms of public/communal transportation) is such a common recurring theme in my dreams. I mean, I know why the "lost my map," "lost my ticket," "lost my passport," "got delayed by traffic jam," "bus stop was moved," etc. elements are common -- those are hallmarks of frustration and/or stress -- but I don't know why travel is the medium through which that frustration expresses itself most often. And I tend to have travel elements in all my other kinds of dreams, too. In fact, I'm now trying to think of dreams that didn't have a travel element, and I'm having a hard time coming up with any. Even the ones that exist mostly in one setting tend to have travel in the backstory.

Which is really weird because I'm a homebody. *hands* Brains man. Brains are weird.

(This last item brought to you by the two dreams about trains and the one very long dream about airports/airplanes I had last night.)
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I had a long string of vaguely connected dreams about apartments last night (known hazard of working for a renting company *sigh*), most of which were pretty normal... but in the middle there was a random episode where I'd moved into a company-owned apartment and was desperately trying to hide the One Ring from Chancellor Palpatine. As one does. So I strung it on a necklace chain and hid the whole thing in my toilet tank.

Palpatine stalked me for a while and made creepy insinuating comments whenever he showed up at my job. Then he acquired an illegal copy of my back door key and snuck into my apartment when he thought I wasn't home. Except I was, and I caught him red-handed, and then my bosses and I had him arrested.

After that I stopped hiding the One Ring in my toilet tank and started looking into drone rentals so I could drop it into Mount Doom remotely. :)
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Last night I dreamed that my parents, my sister, and I were on a road trip like we used to do when Vicky and I were kids -- actually, I think that in the dream, Vicky and I were both teenagers again. We were heading to Minnesota, which is normal. But we were driving around in a big white van with, like, folding beds and curtains in the back instead of a regular car.

Vicky was fooling around online and found a report of a woman who'd come home with her young daughter and found three strangers in her attic laying out bodies on the furniture and floor. Obviously she panicked and ran out.

Vicky decided we should investigate this, and for some reason Mom and Dad thought this was a great idea. I was really tired and just wanted a nap, but didn't object.

cut for length )

But that's another dream. :)
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I slept very badly Monday night -- probably free-floating stress about, I dunno, college and bus schedules and work and general uncertainty about the future. I kept having extremely upsetting dreams, which I'd wake from sweating and emotionally wrung out and then have trouble getting back to sleep.

By "upsetting dreams" I mean things like the following:

1. A dream in which a refugee people fled one civil war only to walk right into another civil war and then accidentally start a third war when they tried to settle in a third country, and the families I was sort of following through this narrative kept losing members in horribly gruesome ways. Also there was a drought and famine. I woke up just as a group of soldiers with boar spears were advancing on the few surviving refugees in the middle of their ruined farm.

2. A dream in which a ship of people went on a mission to establish a new trading route across an ocean, only there was an ecological disaster and all the water turned to acid poison and their ship was slowly being eaten away from underneath them, so they sailed north as fast as they could and ran aground on an iceberg as their ship dissolved, but of course the iceberg was also made of acid poison and now they were menaced by mutant polar bears and leopard seals, and the iceberg was slowly tipping sideways...

3. A dream in which a person had been caught in an emotionally abusive relationship after fleeing from their emotionally abusive birth family, and finally worked up the strength to get out. This required smashing a ceramic bowl that was a magical symbol of their commitment to their abusive partner, and they kept throwing the bowl on the ground but it wouldn't break, and then the abusive partner came home and starting trying to turn the situation around and make the protagonist out to be the real abuser.

So, you know, upsetting.

Anyway, on Tuesday evening I had my scholarship program orientation session, which went pretty well. The bus schedules were just as inconvenient as I'd expected, which meant I ended up sitting around in a lounge for 75 minutes after the orientation, waiting for the next bus home. Ugh.

I slept somewhat badly again Tuesday night, though at least that time it was just restless sleep rather than bad dreams, and work was busy again today (all the students have return to town for the spring semester, which means approximately seven thousand packages and various sublet move-ins), so I am still feeling kind of fried.

But I've arranged calls with Cat and Susan for the weekend, my to-do lists look manageable, and I have tomorrow off work from both my jobs. The plan is to go to bed early, sleep in late, and then pretend I am a productive adult until I get caught up on some stuff I've let slide these past few days. We'll see how it goes. :)
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My weird Celexa dreams continue, and I continue to find them vastly entertaining. Also, aside from the general free entertainment, dreams are a fascinating snapshot into the way my brain plays cut-and-paste-and-twist with a deeply random grab-bag of things I've noticed or thought about over the past few days.

Like, a couple nights ago I had a dream that was mostly weird porn (no seriously, whatever you are thinking it was weirder than that; it was kind of like a sociological study of "why the fuck would anyone think this was sexy???") except randomly a bunch of it kept taking place in raw-timber cabins and there was a digression in which two of my friends and I had to build a cabin in order to have a place to set up the projector to watch more weird porn for this sociological study. Which I am pretty sure is because a person I follow on Tumblr sometimes posts pictures of pretty cabins.

And there was a dream in which I kept trying to make a terrible bilingual Spanish pun, which failed miserably because I don't speak Spanish. I think that was because a Spanish class (and a person struggling in it) featured in a fic I'd read a couple days beforehand.

And last night I had a dream in which... well, it was long and full of weird digressions, but the basic plot thread was as follows: after some kind of zombie apocalypse struck, I was with a group of people who'd holed up in a sort of fortress wilderness area (creeks and gorges and stuff, readily defensible). We discovered that people who'd been bitten by the zombies could be kept from degenerating into ravening monsters if -- and only if -- they ate a certain number of printed pages per day. (This varied between literally eating the pages and sort of mystically "drinking" the printed words through vampire fangs, because dreams do not have to be consistent or make sense.)

We were all very worried because of course we had a moral obligation to keep victims from turning into mindless beasts, but we didn't have an infinite supply of books, not to mention the books we did have were mostly practical reference material that we desperately needed since we were not wilderness survival experts. There were some raids into the nearby city library, and I think we were debating the possibility of building a printing press when I woke up.

This is clearly allegorical and stuff, but also might make an interesting variation on a typical zombie apocalypse, because who cares about guns and patriarchy when there are BOOKS at stake. *wry*

Also I have reconfirmed that I cannot do math when I'm asleep -- or rather, I can do math just enough to realize that my sleeping brain is getting wildly wrong answers, at which point I get so frustrated that I force myself awake until I am coherent enough to find the correct answer. Once I reassure myself that I haven't forgotten how to do basic subtraction, I fall back asleep.

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