days 6-8 on Celexa

[edenfalling]

Weird food issues have disappeared -- I am now experiencing hunger correctly, and food once again has flavor. Yay!

I did an experiment on Wednesday night to see how the medication interacted with alcohol. The answer is that it is pretty much as I remembered from my last stint on anti-depressants: namely, that I get really mellow-floaty-detached on remarkably little alcohol, and the next day I feel like I've missed an entire week of sleep. So I will parcel out my two remaining bottles of hard cider on carefully chosen occasions when I have no responsibilities the next day, and the bottle of rosé wine in my fridge will remain unopened until such time as I have guests over to help finish it. And I will just not buy alcohol for the next couple years. *wry*

I am unsure if there's been any particular effect on my mood. I mean, the world is currently in color instead of flat and gray and distant. But I'm not really motivated in any sense, I still have a persistent sense of isolation/futility, and I've let a bunch of planned tasks slide these past few days. So I'll keep an eye on that going forward.

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[monkey5s]

Heh. The last time I sought medication for my depression, we started with a SSRI, and I did feel less awful. But I noticed I was *completely* unable to keep from procrastinating. When I reported that to the doc at my next visit, she said that getting serotonin back where it needs to be often reveals *other* brain chemistry issues that were lumped in with the first symptoms. Like deficiency in dopamine. So I got the drug for that, too. I mean, it helped, and I was good to go on my own, unmedicated, after a couple of years. But still, it gets frustrating sometimes. Brains, so tricksy and difficult! Hope it's fairly smooth sailing for you going forward.

[edenfalling]

Hmm. Something to keep in mind, I guess!

I am unsure whether my persistent difficulties with motivation/keeping a schedule are depression-related or maybe a mild form of undiagnosed ADHD, because I do have a slightly idiosyncratic reaction to caffeine -- that is, I use it as a focus aid as much as a wake-up aid, and in fact sometimes I drink caffeine and then promptly want a nap -- and I've always been utter shit at deadlines until the last minute. But that's usually manageable if I A) have enough sleep and B) am not feeling gray/hopeless, so the gray/hopeless problem is more immediately relevant.