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edenfallingIncidentally, I am not dead. I've just been overdosing on the endless backlog of fic on old Homestuck kink meme posts. I have also been sleeping unrestfully -- I keep having bad dreams that wake me at odd hours -- but I don't think that's related to the reading.
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I don't tend to have nightmares. One or two a year is my standard rate. When I say I have bad dreams, I almost always mean frustration dreams.
For example, last night I dreamed I was spending an afternoon with my mother and I suddenly realized that she was going to be taken through a portal to Narnia where she would inevitably be killed. (It's a dream; roll with it.) So I had to stop her from walking through specific doorways or up specific staircases, but she kept being all, "But I need to refill my coffee and there's coffee in there/up there/around that corner!" and I would be all, "No! You can't go there, let's go somewhere else!" and wake up all wound up and tense and deeply annoyed at the general perversity of the universe. Not a nightmare, but intensely frustrating, especially since it looped in variations all night long. One time we'd be in a slightly run-down mansion, another time we'd be out shopping on a city street, another time we'd be in a mall, another time we'd be in my old hometown church, etcetera ad infinitum.
I hate frustration dreams much more than I hate nightmares. Nighmares are at least interesting, and also generally one-off experiences. Frustration dreams are existential futility over and over and freaking OVER until I want to scream, and every time I fall back to sleep they just reset and play again from the top.
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I don't tend to have nightmares. One or two a year is my standard rate. When I say I have bad dreams, I almost always mean frustration dreams.
For example, last night I dreamed I was spending an afternoon with my mother and I suddenly realized that she was going to be taken through a portal to Narnia where she would inevitably be killed. (It's a dream; roll with it.) So I had to stop her from walking through specific doorways or up specific staircases, but she kept being all, "But I need to refill my coffee and there's coffee in there/up there/around that corner!" and I would be all, "No! You can't go there, let's go somewhere else!" and wake up all wound up and tense and deeply annoyed at the general perversity of the universe. Not a nightmare, but intensely frustrating, especially since it looped in variations all night long. One time we'd be in a slightly run-down mansion, another time we'd be out shopping on a city street, another time we'd be in a mall, another time we'd be in my old hometown church, etcetera ad infinitum.
I hate frustration dreams much more than I hate nightmares. Nighmares are at least interesting, and also generally one-off experiences. Frustration dreams are existential futility over and over and freaking OVER until I want to scream, and every time I fall back to sleep they just reset and play again from the top.
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Date: 2012-02-17 03:33 am (UTC)That sounds rough and unrestful.
Have you tried meletonin?
Also, exercise can help your mind work out what your sub is trying to tell you.
Natural chemicals and endorphins are good for you!
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Date: 2012-02-17 09:40 pm (UTC)Mostly I figure my occasional frustration dreams are a sign that I am very wound up about something (or moderately wound up about several things, which is the case this time) in waking life, and once I have resolved those issues, the dreams will go away. They only come every two or three months and don't usually last more than a few days. :-)