glass and fog
Jun. 23rd, 2005 01:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
edenfallingWeeks like this, I'm very glad I have antidepressants. Because I can feel the gray fog waiting to trap me, lurking just outside a small bubble of clear space that the pills create.
*sigh*
On the upside, I am in a good mental/emotional place for writing and editing darkfic. The meds keep me together enough to channel the yick onto the page, and it's very easy to write hopelessness and despair and self-hatred.
Stress is better for writing, though. When I'm stressed out, I feel like there are a thousand shards of glass swarming like wasps inside me, just waiting to burst out, and I need somewhere to direct that energy before it slashes me to pieces and tumbles out uncontrollably. Writing usually works.
*sigh*
On the upside, I am in a good mental/emotional place for writing and editing darkfic. The meds keep me together enough to channel the yick onto the page, and it's very easy to write hopelessness and despair and self-hatred.
Stress is better for writing, though. When I'm stressed out, I feel like there are a thousand shards of glass swarming like wasps inside me, just waiting to burst out, and I need somewhere to direct that energy before it slashes me to pieces and tumbles out uncontrollably. Writing usually works.
